I want to jump from the bridge, take any drugs until I'm O.D, or take a shot until I passed out or anything that can make me forget about today.

I dont wanna wake up tomorrow.

I don't know how am I going to wake up tomorrow.

At a time like this, I wish I'm at the hospital and dying.

Maybe that way I don't feel what I feel right now.

I have never ever in my life feeling so disappointed like now.

I am so speechless right now.

So many things going trough my mind.

Why? I just want to know why this is happening to me right now.

I feel broken hearted.

I am hurt.

Its not fair if I feel disappointed in God, but I feel like where is he when I need him? I thought my prayer was answered, but turn out it just causing another problem.

Maybe he is testing my faith.

Maybe…

Maybe He just want to see how far would I stick with him through this.

Maybe…

My chest hurt, I can't breathe.

I don't know what to say, I honestly don't.

What should I do? I want to give up so bad.

there are no words can describe how broken hearted I am right now.

The pain is too painful to handle.

Im just a human, I'm not strong like a steel.

I don't know what I'm gonna do, I don't know what I should do. I don't know about everything.

I don't even know what do I believe in anymore.

I just need an answer, just an answer.